Alone

Tonight i feel so very alone. This tends to happen when i am left to my thoughts. Last night i re-read all my e-mails that my ex had sent me in the last two years. he really really loved me. I was very blind to this. I wish i had known then what i know now. One of the hardest things i have ever done is to tell him i was sorry and that i now know that he loved me and that i was unfair and mean and it was uncalled for. I have apologized so many times now, but they were brutal realizations. i just wish i could get more than a "im glad you told me and i appreciate it"

i wish i could just get over him....