Isn't it amazing?

I have spent the last few days realizing what distance can really make you feel. I really didn't think i would miss this guy so much until he left for boot camp. i cant seem to wrap my mind around the feelings i am feeling. I have spent so much time trying to block out my emotions that i am scared to feel anything for him. maybe this will change through the next few weeks of letters, its got me wishing december was here. i am so scared to like love and lust after this guy. he is so different from everyone else. he tries really hard and even when he misses he manages to make me smile. i miss his stories alot too, he knew how to make me smile even when i was really angry.